I am so goddamn restless today/tonight.

I missed the sea so much that I ached. Oh, what I'll give, to be able to spend a day at the beach with just my book and the cool breeze. Or to stroll down the bay.

Took it for granted when the beach was only 5 mins away.

😔😞😖😣😢😭

I was right. Cause no matter how it is in the states, I was never restless. He pace here is so much faster and once slowed, I got restless. But because everything was so lax over there, it felt normal.

I kinda missed the food. Dinner every night, listening to them, cooking w Elaine. Walking bear. Refuse to think about him cos everything about him makes me sad.

I need distractions, excitement, people.

And so, I dream.